Gots a PED question for yeah. I’ll start by saying I know Test and bio identical hormones are best. I’ve been told a few times that you can get pretty big with just Test, some HGH and a Costco membership haha. But just humour me with a hypothetical scenario here if you would.
So let’s say all health factors are already in place: Sleep, sun/circadian, diet, supps, training etc. Plus bloodwork is on point and you’re at 8-9% BF.
You want to put on some size on a long slow lean bulk. You’ve already got Test E and a generic HGH that’s high purity/no dimer/lab tested in place. You want to add another AAS to this stack, mainly as a side kick to the Test, maybe it will allow you to run the Test at a higher mg and complement it well. Gun to your head, which 1 AAS do you choose and why?
Could be a DHT derivative or 19-nor. Oral or injectable, but injectable probably makes more sense considering it’s a long bulk. DHT esters are not an option here also haha.
I understand that your answer is not advice and purely for educational purposes. Thanks for reading brother.
Ya, for off season when cosmetic effect doesn't even matter, zero reason to use test. The gains are better too, lol. At true 8-9% you could easily run a gram of test e per week without AI. As crazy as it sounds, it's not as estrogenic as the 300-500mg range because aromatase saturates before 5ar (which upregulates) at that bf range.
But you're holding me at gunpoint to give inferior advice. Fuck, haha. Pharmaceutical Anavar is S tier synthetic Androgen. The pumps are too good. The strength boost to side effect ratio is awesome. It's an amazing pre-workout = better gains.
Methyl Test even crazier pre + strength gaund, but not sustainable.
Pharmaceutical anadrol might be the happy medium between the two if the goal is to intentionally damage your health without even building more muscle tissue 😭 not everyone responds well to anadrol, though. But personally, it was pretty dry and the (temporary) size and strength gains were dramatic. That's degenerate behavior, but smiling thinking about how fun it was 😂
If you can't run a gram of test without getting gyno, probably not 8%. Wouldn't run more than that, so only other choice would be maximum amount of test + minimum amount of primo needed to not be excessively estrogenic
Appreciate your detailed response here as always bro.
Yeah in this hypothetical scenario pushing the Test as high as possible is the goal. Love pre work Anavar as well, was just using it a few times a week on a cut, so awesome especially on hard training days when you need that extra push due to lack of cals.
Anadrol sounds fun, but scares me at the same time haha. So do 19-nors, I’m not trying to be a competitive bodybuilder so why even risk it and potentially fuck with your Prolactin. Just my opinion. It’s all recreational fun to me so the safer and less risks the better.
A tiny bit of lab tested Primo with high dose Test sounds like it could be a good scenario as long as bloods say so. Keeping in mind that Estrogen is a friend of the bulk!
Thanks again for your answer, I’ll take the gun away from your head now 🤣🤣
I understand circadian rhythm/redox/blocking blue light is almost everything for health, and I buy into it. However I just can't see how I can have a normal life being in public with yellow/red blue light blockers on constantly whenever inside. What girl in their 20s would accept their boyfriend doing that? My family and friends would think I've completely lost it. I see myself basically getting ostracized or treated like "that weird dude" If I go all in on it. I can't see someone going to university and having a normal social life doing that. What's been people's experience in regards to this?
You mentioned a coming pheromone guide in a q&a a while back in an answer, is that coming or the one that exists on Twitter is the definitive one?
I guess you can just wait for the other savages who wear blue blockers in public and swoop beautiful women in their 20s to make them "cool". We will, give it a few years. Always get compliments on how cool they look. You see chromas yellow aviators? Some fear and loathing shit. I think ur prob overthinking it. U can simply bend reality to your will if u are correct
@simpleorganix was gonna throw some stuff in the pheromones guide but will just post a v1 Monday or Tuesday then. Its very long. Btw being afraid to do what u want in public gives off a scent too 😁
Here I was, thinking I could just increase pheromones to get girls without doing necessary shadow work. Smh lol 😂. Time to let the universe take the wheel.
What recommendations would you have for those with a slow COMT gene (Met/met) especially if things like dopamine seeking behavior, estrogen dominance, anxiety, rumination, and gynecomastia have been a lifelong problem?
What music/frequencies do you listen to in the gym or in your daily life? :)
Right, so test + dht / e2 <350 is estrogen dominance
All you have to do is gain some strength on stronglifts program while getting lean
Do a few circadian dry fasts to get the momentum rolling. 3 days resets dopamine, leptin, glp all that good stuff and burns visible at of fat
Anyone can do it. No genes prevent you from doing it. Met/met makes it easier to burn fat by the way.
No music daily actually :) funny since you mention dopamine seeking. That's why no daily music. Silence is so much better for focus and motivation. You'll get bored of music one day anyway. It's so much better when it's for special occasions. People don't realize it's pretty hardcore stimulation.
What advice would you give to a guy in his early twenties who’s struggling to find a sense of purpose or meaningful goals to strive for?
For context, I just finished my studies and landed a comfortable, normal job, but I literally don’t give a fuck about it. It brings me nothing but emptiness. Sure, the work is somewhat intellectually and socially challenging, and I enjoy that aspect of it, but I know for a fact that I was not put here to do this.
To give a bit more context, I feel disconnected from my true self and from God, which I guess is closely related to my lack of direction.
I’m not looking for a specific or detailed answer, obviously. I’m just curious to know what broad directions you would recommend exploring.
I’m trying to make sense of a very unusual and selective change in sexual function.
I’m 33, lean, muscular and physically active, take no regular medication, and had never previously experienced any sexual function issues.
The symptoms emerged during a period of about 7 to 10 days when I was using two audio programs combining binaural beats, isochronic tones, subliminals and what the creator describes as morphic field programming. One was marketed as influencing androgen signalling, including testosterone to DHT conversion, androgen receptor sensitivity and SHBG. The other was presented as influencing erectile physiology and post-ejaculatory prolactin and serotonin regulation.
The strange part was the split between mental attraction and physical arousal. I still noticed and felt attracted to women, but that attraction no longer translated into the usual bodily urge for sex or genital arousal. Morning erections became less frequent, spontaneous erections during the day disappeared, and my flaccid penis became noticeably more retracted.
I could still get and maintain an erection during sex. It was hard and stable, but not as full as usual. There was no true numbness. I could clearly feel touch and pressure, but the sensation no longer translated into the usual pleasure or arousal.
Orgasm was still possible, but it became dramatically weaker and less satisfying. Instead of building into the usual intense climax, it mostly fizzled out.
Outside sexuality, I felt normal. My mood, energy, motivation and enjoyment of training, food, music and other activities were unchanged.
I am now approaching four weeks since I stopped listening to the audios. Erection quality and flaccid fullness are almost back to baseline, and stimulation feels substantially more pleasurable again. Physical sexual arousal and orgasm quality are still below baseline, although both seem to be improving gradually.
I understand that the timing alone does not prove causation, but the audios were the only obvious new variable I could identify. There were no new medications or supplements, no illness or major stressor, and no meaningful lifestyle change around the time this started.
Routine fasting bloodwork taken at around 10 a.m. did not reveal any obvious abnormalities. The hormonal markers measured were total testosterone at 26 nmol/L, SHBG at 40 nmol/L, a free testosterone index of 6.4 and TSH at 2.0 mU/L. Prolactin, estradiol, LH, FSH and DHT were not measured.
What do you think is going on here, and how would you approach getting fully back to baseline? I’m open to any intervention
I’m open to a nocebo explanation, but what makes it difficult for me to fully accept is that I did not go into this expecting harm. I was skeptical that the audios themselves could directly alter my biology, but I deliberately approached the experiment with a positive mindset. Given how powerful expectation can be, I thought that even if the claimed mechanisms were not real, believing I was doing something beneficial might still produce a beneficial effect.
The large number of positive reports also made me more inclined to expect either no effect or some benefit. I was not considering adverse effects as a realistic outcome. The symptoms are what made me start taking the possibility seriously afterward.
I understand that subconscious beliefs are not always consciously accessible, but I still struggle to identify what underlying fear or expectation would have produced this particular pattern
By definition, subconscious beliefs are not conscious!
What we do know is if your intention is to find out at all costs, you will eventually.
You're given hints each day. Look at what sets you off.
Anger says you're attached to an outcome
Sadness says you believe you are lacking something
Fear says you believe you're in control and are about to lose it
And you've already answered a lot more than you realize. Won't help if I do the work for you though :)
Thing is you DON'T need to expect harm. That's almost never how it turns out. Nocebo is just like placebo, it requires you to grant the thing power. Expectation may steer it, but subconscious will grab the wheel if uninterested.
You pressed play on something claiming control over your androgen receptors, SHBG and prolactin, and you believed it. Your Positive framing is irrelevant. Then you started checking. Obsessively. Reminiscent of anxiety disorder/OCD, usually tied to lack of daily morning sun BTW.
Your androgens didnt move, but your Parasympathetic tone did, in the one domain you started constantly observing.
"Morning erections became less frequent, spontaneous erections during the day disappeared, and my flaccid penis became noticeably more retracted."
Uh ya? How are you going to be aroused THINKING ABOUT YOUR OWN PENIS? 😂
Think about all the times you had a genuinely stressful day that wasn't related to your dick. You didnt have morning wood or spontaneous erections then. You didn't think anything of it.
Arousal functions as what? Sexual reproduction. Think about evolutionary biology. Would an organism survive if it prioritized sex over perceived threats? No. Your constant monitoring of your D is no different to your autonomic nervous system than an actual threat.
You're stuck at 80% because you quit the audios and kept the monitoring. The last 20% is hostage to the measurement.
The fear thay by now, you should not be still unsure about :)
If you think the fear is fear of dick damage -Wrong. That's CONSCIOUS.
Why did a lean, drug free 33 year old with zero dysfunction go shopping for a morphic field to upgrade his erections?
Nobody optimizes what they're at peace with.
The reaching was the confession: my sexual capacity needs managing.
That's the control belief.
Delete the metrics. ALL RECORDS. No more checking. Every check buys you another day of sympathetic tone.
Orgasm off the table two weeks.
Stack nothing. No Cialis, PT-141, cabergoline. Each one confirms to yourself "I am broken and need managing", the exact belief that built this. It'd work, and it'd cost you the lesson. The lesson will come back in a different form, always more painful to learn Lol.
Labs once: prolactin, sensitive E2, LH, FSH, DHT, AM cortisol. Not to find something, to close the "what if." Your permission slip. (Elevated prolactin is a real finding. Rule it out, move on.)
Sunrise light in the eyes, nasal breathing, sauna, barefoot.
When the check impulse fires: thank you, fear. What am I trying to control? What won't I surrender? Then wait. It answers.
The White pill is you rewrote your physiology in ten days on belief alone, then reversed it. Most men never get that far. You paid four weeks of weak orgasms for it. Pretty Cheap.
You have a strong mind, run it the other way now and win my brother!
Really appreciate the depth of this answer. You’ve given me a lot to sit with, and it will take me some time to fully digest it.
Some parts land immediately. Others challenge the way I have been looking at the situation and will require more honest reflection. I do not yet know how to weigh every part of the explanation, but I can see that the practical advice is worth following properly instead of continuing to analyze the problem from every angle.
Thank you for taking the question seriously and putting this much thought into your response. I genuinely appreciate it
BTBH thanks for doing this. Missed the 48h mark. I can always copy into next one if so. Noticed recently that resting HR has been trending upwards some days and also feel the need to take more deep breaths. Grok thinks it’s “sympathetic overdrive” and incomplete recovery. Lifestyle changes include: being a new dad, building wifi business and newish W2. In this case would you recommend just rest it out or are there some natural(ish) supplements that I can use to push through this? Have also had adrenal fatigue in past and you recommended adrenal cortex at the time
Thanks for all the content. What lab testing platform would you recommend for folks/ do you use given routine bloodwork? My insurance through work only covers 1x/year and I do function health too but wondering if you’d recommend another option.
Hello!, i have seen several health "clinics" shilling rapamycin + even now topical rapamycin for hair etc.Is there any value in using rapamycin for 1- 1. Acutely or occasionally 2. Scalp/ hair health
I often find myself falling into the pattern of visualizing and imagining myself in negative conversations with friends/gf, etc, mainly related to past arguments we had or past things that sort of stayed even though they shouldn't, cause technically they have been solved.
I don't know whether or not calling this victim mindset, or simply the need to constantly filling time and feeling to have attention/feeling important, but I feel that's draining, and most importantly, completely useless.
The point is that it is sort of involuntary, or at least not really easy to control (maybe I get aware of it and initially detach myself from it, but after a while it comes back and I fall into it).
Given your knowledge of the universe and psychology/subcouncius mind, do you have any recommendations?
I'm in my late 40s, 6'0, 220 lbs. Body fat in upper 20s, 40" waist, not great. Started testosterone cream about a year ago (150 mg/day) and went from low 200s free testosterone to ~500. Body odor and back acne side effects, plus I gained (no joke) 11 pounds in the first 11 days on it.
Free testosterone 9.8 ng/dl, estradiol 51. Hematocrit in low 60s. Started on supplements to lower estradiol and hematocrit.
I know now I shouldn't have started on T until I lost weight. Given that I have been on T for about a year, though, with only minor boosts to energy and muscle, would it be best to go off of it and get back on (if needed) once I lose weight or to stay the course and try to lose weight while on it?
My T3 and TSH are always very low (in range, but consistently as low as can be and still be in range) - should I work with my functional health Dr and try some T3 supplementation? If so, what kind of dosing is best? I’m thinking I should start very low and then retest?
How long does it take for your hormones(LH, FSH, test,etc.) to recover to natural levels after a nolvadex 10mg Ed 6wk pct for a basic test 300-400mg test cycle. Is it just six weeks after the last dose of the nolvadex, since that is when the metabolites clear or does it take even longer. Also, relatedly, is permanent suppression after doing a cycle a myth or is it actually something to be concerned about? I am asking for educational reasons as I want to know the effect of hormones.
Thought you meant you ran nova for 6 weeks. Don't run nova as pct. It doesnt work well. The suppression ends as soon as the testosterone clears. Enclo is the normie bridge. Low dose dht therapy is better, so hopefully thatll be available medically soon!
Hmm, I have read that low does DHT only helps in those who are 5ar deficient, otherwise, it does not help with boosting lsh/fsh and causes unnecessary adrenal suppression
I'd like to hear your opinion on prevention and management of postoperative adhesions. In 2018 I had to go through major abdominal surgery due to peritonitis. Five months later I required another major surgery because of an intestinal occlusion caused by postoperative adhesions and fibrotic bands that developed during the healing process. And 1 year ago I experienced another episode of bowel obstruction requiring surgery (there was no bowel ischemia/resection.) I understand that each additional abdominal operation increases the risk of further adhesion formation, and my main goal is to reduce the likelihood of recurrence as much as realistically possible.
Since the last surgery I've been working with a physiotherapist on abdominal scar treatment and mobility. My current protocol is: nattokinasse and serrapeptase in fasted state, based on their fibrinolytic and anti-inflammatory effects. Vit E with gamma tocopherols with the aim of reducing oxidative stress and inflammation. And the most important 3-4 times per week of hypopressive abdominal exercices to improve abdominal wall function and visceral mobility. Would you add or modify anything in my protocol? Thanks a lot!
PED Q if I may - what would be the best/safest method to split and store 1 ample of testosterone E if its at least a half decent idea in the first place.
Only reason would be that amples are the only pharma grade available for that person. 1ml ample = 6 doses per ample, 3x/week
Would crack a couple, draw into a 3cc syringe, inject into a pre-sterilized vial with a syringe filter. No more than month supply at a time. Shutting down pituitary and changing aromatization dynamics for replacement level TRT dose when ur already high T and jacked already not worth it though. Would at least want to make some sick gains.
Thanks, will reconsider it in that case, my plan was to be btwn 120-150/week but heard/read this in recent months that it wont do much for me atm.
If I may - do you think that dose wont put me into 1000-1100 range. My test has been around 800-820 for 2 years and I feel that the visual progress in the gym is horribly slow and also mental/life drive is not as it was when I was 20 which is the goal.
Or that 30% increase is just not what one would say “I definitely see the visual progress and life force going up”?
Was up BTB?
Gots a PED question for yeah. I’ll start by saying I know Test and bio identical hormones are best. I’ve been told a few times that you can get pretty big with just Test, some HGH and a Costco membership haha. But just humour me with a hypothetical scenario here if you would.
So let’s say all health factors are already in place: Sleep, sun/circadian, diet, supps, training etc. Plus bloodwork is on point and you’re at 8-9% BF.
You want to put on some size on a long slow lean bulk. You’ve already got Test E and a generic HGH that’s high purity/no dimer/lab tested in place. You want to add another AAS to this stack, mainly as a side kick to the Test, maybe it will allow you to run the Test at a higher mg and complement it well. Gun to your head, which 1 AAS do you choose and why?
Could be a DHT derivative or 19-nor. Oral or injectable, but injectable probably makes more sense considering it’s a long bulk. DHT esters are not an option here also haha.
I understand that your answer is not advice and purely for educational purposes. Thanks for reading brother.
P.S. love the new Mucho Man avatar for the Q&A!
Ya, for off season when cosmetic effect doesn't even matter, zero reason to use test. The gains are better too, lol. At true 8-9% you could easily run a gram of test e per week without AI. As crazy as it sounds, it's not as estrogenic as the 300-500mg range because aromatase saturates before 5ar (which upregulates) at that bf range.
But you're holding me at gunpoint to give inferior advice. Fuck, haha. Pharmaceutical Anavar is S tier synthetic Androgen. The pumps are too good. The strength boost to side effect ratio is awesome. It's an amazing pre-workout = better gains.
Methyl Test even crazier pre + strength gaund, but not sustainable.
Pharmaceutical anadrol might be the happy medium between the two if the goal is to intentionally damage your health without even building more muscle tissue 😭 not everyone responds well to anadrol, though. But personally, it was pretty dry and the (temporary) size and strength gains were dramatic. That's degenerate behavior, but smiling thinking about how fun it was 😂
If you can't run a gram of test without getting gyno, probably not 8%. Wouldn't run more than that, so only other choice would be maximum amount of test + minimum amount of primo needed to not be excessively estrogenic
BUT REMEMBER
YOU SAID BULK/GROW/OFF SEASON
ESTRADIOL IS YOUR FREN :)
Zero reason to not use test*** 😂
HGH Carpal tunnel = typos LOL
Next time just call UM, Ben Westgate, Vigorous Steve and Chase Irons dumb to our face!
Appreciate your detailed response here as always bro.
Yeah in this hypothetical scenario pushing the Test as high as possible is the goal. Love pre work Anavar as well, was just using it a few times a week on a cut, so awesome especially on hard training days when you need that extra push due to lack of cals.
Anadrol sounds fun, but scares me at the same time haha. So do 19-nors, I’m not trying to be a competitive bodybuilder so why even risk it and potentially fuck with your Prolactin. Just my opinion. It’s all recreational fun to me so the safer and less risks the better.
A tiny bit of lab tested Primo with high dose Test sounds like it could be a good scenario as long as bloods say so. Keeping in mind that Estrogen is a friend of the bulk!
Thanks again for your answer, I’ll take the gun away from your head now 🤣🤣
Anyone can feel free to answer this question.
I understand circadian rhythm/redox/blocking blue light is almost everything for health, and I buy into it. However I just can't see how I can have a normal life being in public with yellow/red blue light blockers on constantly whenever inside. What girl in their 20s would accept their boyfriend doing that? My family and friends would think I've completely lost it. I see myself basically getting ostracized or treated like "that weird dude" If I go all in on it. I can't see someone going to university and having a normal social life doing that. What's been people's experience in regards to this?
You mentioned a coming pheromone guide in a q&a a while back in an answer, is that coming or the one that exists on Twitter is the definitive one?
I guess you can just wait for the other savages who wear blue blockers in public and swoop beautiful women in their 20s to make them "cool". We will, give it a few years. Always get compliments on how cool they look. You see chromas yellow aviators? Some fear and loathing shit. I think ur prob overthinking it. U can simply bend reality to your will if u are correct
@simpleorganix was gonna throw some stuff in the pheromones guide but will just post a v1 Monday or Tuesday then. Its very long. Btw being afraid to do what u want in public gives off a scent too 😁
Yeah you're right and the chromas do look nice.
Here I was, thinking I could just increase pheromones to get girls without doing necessary shadow work. Smh lol 😂. Time to let the universe take the wheel.
Thanks for the reply and reality check
Hi UM,
What recommendations would you have for those with a slow COMT gene (Met/met) especially if things like dopamine seeking behavior, estrogen dominance, anxiety, rumination, and gynecomastia have been a lifelong problem?
What music/frequencies do you listen to in the gym or in your daily life? :)
Right, so test + dht / e2 <350 is estrogen dominance
All you have to do is gain some strength on stronglifts program while getting lean
Do a few circadian dry fasts to get the momentum rolling. 3 days resets dopamine, leptin, glp all that good stuff and burns visible at of fat
Anyone can do it. No genes prevent you from doing it. Met/met makes it easier to burn fat by the way.
No music daily actually :) funny since you mention dopamine seeking. That's why no daily music. Silence is so much better for focus and motivation. You'll get bored of music one day anyway. It's so much better when it's for special occasions. People don't realize it's pretty hardcore stimulation.
Perfect.I was already planning on doing the dry fasts after reading last week’s article. I have some leptin resistance to correct lol
Appreciate the response UM
If you get a 6pack and some decent numbers on squat, deadlift, ohp and bench...impossible be to low DHT. Natty the way to go
Makes sense. Long way to go haha but I’ll get there
Thanks for all the help bro
Hey UM,
What advice would you give to a guy in his early twenties who’s struggling to find a sense of purpose or meaningful goals to strive for?
For context, I just finished my studies and landed a comfortable, normal job, but I literally don’t give a fuck about it. It brings me nothing but emptiness. Sure, the work is somewhat intellectually and socially challenging, and I enjoy that aspect of it, but I know for a fact that I was not put here to do this.
To give a bit more context, I feel disconnected from my true self and from God, which I guess is closely related to my lack of direction.
I’m not looking for a specific or detailed answer, obviously. I’m just curious to know what broad directions you would recommend exploring.
I’m trying to make sense of a very unusual and selective change in sexual function.
I’m 33, lean, muscular and physically active, take no regular medication, and had never previously experienced any sexual function issues.
The symptoms emerged during a period of about 7 to 10 days when I was using two audio programs combining binaural beats, isochronic tones, subliminals and what the creator describes as morphic field programming. One was marketed as influencing androgen signalling, including testosterone to DHT conversion, androgen receptor sensitivity and SHBG. The other was presented as influencing erectile physiology and post-ejaculatory prolactin and serotonin regulation.
The strange part was the split between mental attraction and physical arousal. I still noticed and felt attracted to women, but that attraction no longer translated into the usual bodily urge for sex or genital arousal. Morning erections became less frequent, spontaneous erections during the day disappeared, and my flaccid penis became noticeably more retracted.
I could still get and maintain an erection during sex. It was hard and stable, but not as full as usual. There was no true numbness. I could clearly feel touch and pressure, but the sensation no longer translated into the usual pleasure or arousal.
Orgasm was still possible, but it became dramatically weaker and less satisfying. Instead of building into the usual intense climax, it mostly fizzled out.
Outside sexuality, I felt normal. My mood, energy, motivation and enjoyment of training, food, music and other activities were unchanged.
I am now approaching four weeks since I stopped listening to the audios. Erection quality and flaccid fullness are almost back to baseline, and stimulation feels substantially more pleasurable again. Physical sexual arousal and orgasm quality are still below baseline, although both seem to be improving gradually.
I understand that the timing alone does not prove causation, but the audios were the only obvious new variable I could identify. There were no new medications or supplements, no illness or major stressor, and no meaningful lifestyle change around the time this started.
Routine fasting bloodwork taken at around 10 a.m. did not reveal any obvious abnormalities. The hormonal markers measured were total testosterone at 26 nmol/L, SHBG at 40 nmol/L, a free testosterone index of 6.4 and TSH at 2.0 mU/L. Prolactin, estradiol, LH, FSH and DHT were not measured.
What do you think is going on here, and how would you approach getting fully back to baseline? I’m open to any intervention
Nah, I believe it 100%
Nothing stronger than the power of the mind. That's why Nocebo/Placebo exist
Placebo often works better than real meds. Nocebo can literally kill you. All about underlying beliefs.
The good news is, you have a very powerful consciousness. Like top 1% , you could use that to heal yourself, become a millionaire, whatever you want.
Bad news is you psyopped yourself LOL. WILLING TO BET, there's an underlying fear(s) you need to examine.
I’m open to a nocebo explanation, but what makes it difficult for me to fully accept is that I did not go into this expecting harm. I was skeptical that the audios themselves could directly alter my biology, but I deliberately approached the experiment with a positive mindset. Given how powerful expectation can be, I thought that even if the claimed mechanisms were not real, believing I was doing something beneficial might still produce a beneficial effect.
The large number of positive reports also made me more inclined to expect either no effect or some benefit. I was not considering adverse effects as a realistic outcome. The symptoms are what made me start taking the possibility seriously afterward.
I understand that subconscious beliefs are not always consciously accessible, but I still struggle to identify what underlying fear or expectation would have produced this particular pattern
By definition, subconscious beliefs are not conscious!
What we do know is if your intention is to find out at all costs, you will eventually.
You're given hints each day. Look at what sets you off.
Anger says you're attached to an outcome
Sadness says you believe you are lacking something
Fear says you believe you're in control and are about to lose it
And you've already answered a lot more than you realize. Won't help if I do the work for you though :)
Thing is you DON'T need to expect harm. That's almost never how it turns out. Nocebo is just like placebo, it requires you to grant the thing power. Expectation may steer it, but subconscious will grab the wheel if uninterested.
You pressed play on something claiming control over your androgen receptors, SHBG and prolactin, and you believed it. Your Positive framing is irrelevant. Then you started checking. Obsessively. Reminiscent of anxiety disorder/OCD, usually tied to lack of daily morning sun BTW.
Your androgens didnt move, but your Parasympathetic tone did, in the one domain you started constantly observing.
"Morning erections became less frequent, spontaneous erections during the day disappeared, and my flaccid penis became noticeably more retracted."
Uh ya? How are you going to be aroused THINKING ABOUT YOUR OWN PENIS? 😂
Think about all the times you had a genuinely stressful day that wasn't related to your dick. You didnt have morning wood or spontaneous erections then. You didn't think anything of it.
Arousal functions as what? Sexual reproduction. Think about evolutionary biology. Would an organism survive if it prioritized sex over perceived threats? No. Your constant monitoring of your D is no different to your autonomic nervous system than an actual threat.
You're stuck at 80% because you quit the audios and kept the monitoring. The last 20% is hostage to the measurement.
The fear thay by now, you should not be still unsure about :)
If you think the fear is fear of dick damage -Wrong. That's CONSCIOUS.
Why did a lean, drug free 33 year old with zero dysfunction go shopping for a morphic field to upgrade his erections?
Nobody optimizes what they're at peace with.
The reaching was the confession: my sexual capacity needs managing.
That's the control belief.
Delete the metrics. ALL RECORDS. No more checking. Every check buys you another day of sympathetic tone.
Orgasm off the table two weeks.
Stack nothing. No Cialis, PT-141, cabergoline. Each one confirms to yourself "I am broken and need managing", the exact belief that built this. It'd work, and it'd cost you the lesson. The lesson will come back in a different form, always more painful to learn Lol.
Labs once: prolactin, sensitive E2, LH, FSH, DHT, AM cortisol. Not to find something, to close the "what if." Your permission slip. (Elevated prolactin is a real finding. Rule it out, move on.)
Sunrise light in the eyes, nasal breathing, sauna, barefoot.
When the check impulse fires: thank you, fear. What am I trying to control? What won't I surrender? Then wait. It answers.
The White pill is you rewrote your physiology in ten days on belief alone, then reversed it. Most men never get that far. You paid four weeks of weak orgasms for it. Pretty Cheap.
You have a strong mind, run it the other way now and win my brother!
Really appreciate the depth of this answer. You’ve given me a lot to sit with, and it will take me some time to fully digest it.
Some parts land immediately. Others challenge the way I have been looking at the situation and will require more honest reflection. I do not yet know how to weigh every part of the explanation, but I can see that the practical advice is worth following properly instead of continuing to analyze the problem from every angle.
Thank you for taking the question seriously and putting this much thought into your response. I genuinely appreciate it
Meant to say unintegrated* not uninterested. Happy reflecting!
BTBH thanks for doing this. Missed the 48h mark. I can always copy into next one if so. Noticed recently that resting HR has been trending upwards some days and also feel the need to take more deep breaths. Grok thinks it’s “sympathetic overdrive” and incomplete recovery. Lifestyle changes include: being a new dad, building wifi business and newish W2. In this case would you recommend just rest it out or are there some natural(ish) supplements that I can use to push through this? Have also had adrenal fatigue in past and you recommended adrenal cortex at the time
Thanks for all the content. What lab testing platform would you recommend for folks/ do you use given routine bloodwork? My insurance through work only covers 1x/year and I do function health too but wondering if you’d recommend another option.
Hello!, i have seen several health "clinics" shilling rapamycin + even now topical rapamycin for hair etc.Is there any value in using rapamycin for 1- 1. Acutely or occasionally 2. Scalp/ hair health
Someone that doesn’t exist has a gf that wants to get on tirz and lean out. Any tips, warnings, reasons they shouldn’t?
How do you think about the tradeoff between maximizing muscle mass versus maintaining elite cardiovascular fitness for long-term healthspan?
The ultimate goal is reaching age 90+ with excellent cardiovascular and cognitive health.
Hey UM,
I often find myself falling into the pattern of visualizing and imagining myself in negative conversations with friends/gf, etc, mainly related to past arguments we had or past things that sort of stayed even though they shouldn't, cause technically they have been solved.
I don't know whether or not calling this victim mindset, or simply the need to constantly filling time and feeling to have attention/feeling important, but I feel that's draining, and most importantly, completely useless.
The point is that it is sort of involuntary, or at least not really easy to control (maybe I get aware of it and initially detach myself from it, but after a while it comes back and I fall into it).
Given your knowledge of the universe and psychology/subcouncius mind, do you have any recommendations?
Thank you!
I'm in my late 40s, 6'0, 220 lbs. Body fat in upper 20s, 40" waist, not great. Started testosterone cream about a year ago (150 mg/day) and went from low 200s free testosterone to ~500. Body odor and back acne side effects, plus I gained (no joke) 11 pounds in the first 11 days on it.
Free testosterone 9.8 ng/dl, estradiol 51. Hematocrit in low 60s. Started on supplements to lower estradiol and hematocrit.
I know now I shouldn't have started on T until I lost weight. Given that I have been on T for about a year, though, with only minor boosts to energy and muscle, would it be best to go off of it and get back on (if needed) once I lose weight or to stay the course and try to lose weight while on it?
My T3 and TSH are always very low (in range, but consistently as low as can be and still be in range) - should I work with my functional health Dr and try some T3 supplementation? If so, what kind of dosing is best? I’m thinking I should start very low and then retest?
TSH is low or high???
Both are low (I know that’s weird)
Hi BTB,
How long does it take for your hormones(LH, FSH, test,etc.) to recover to natural levels after a nolvadex 10mg Ed 6wk pct for a basic test 300-400mg test cycle. Is it just six weeks after the last dose of the nolvadex, since that is when the metabolites clear or does it take even longer. Also, relatedly, is permanent suppression after doing a cycle a myth or is it actually something to be concerned about? I am asking for educational reasons as I want to know the effect of hormones.
You're no longer suppressed. That's a myth. Check out testosterone and DHT guides
I have not done the cycle. I am saying if I did, how long would it take for them to recover and if permanent suppression is a myth.
Thought you meant you ran nova for 6 weeks. Don't run nova as pct. It doesnt work well. The suppression ends as soon as the testosterone clears. Enclo is the normie bridge. Low dose dht therapy is better, so hopefully thatll be available medically soon!
Hmm, I have read that low does DHT only helps in those who are 5ar deficient, otherwise, it does not help with boosting lsh/fsh and causes unnecessary adrenal suppression
From who? We literally wrote the book 🥲
From someone you associate with and I have mentioned in dms with you. Do not want to mention him out of respect to both of you.
Hi BTB,
I'd like to hear your opinion on prevention and management of postoperative adhesions. In 2018 I had to go through major abdominal surgery due to peritonitis. Five months later I required another major surgery because of an intestinal occlusion caused by postoperative adhesions and fibrotic bands that developed during the healing process. And 1 year ago I experienced another episode of bowel obstruction requiring surgery (there was no bowel ischemia/resection.) I understand that each additional abdominal operation increases the risk of further adhesion formation, and my main goal is to reduce the likelihood of recurrence as much as realistically possible.
Since the last surgery I've been working with a physiotherapist on abdominal scar treatment and mobility. My current protocol is: nattokinasse and serrapeptase in fasted state, based on their fibrinolytic and anti-inflammatory effects. Vit E with gamma tocopherols with the aim of reducing oxidative stress and inflammation. And the most important 3-4 times per week of hypopressive abdominal exercices to improve abdominal wall function and visceral mobility. Would you add or modify anything in my protocol? Thanks a lot!
PED Q if I may - what would be the best/safest method to split and store 1 ample of testosterone E if its at least a half decent idea in the first place.
Only reason would be that amples are the only pharma grade available for that person. 1ml ample = 6 doses per ample, 3x/week
Would crack a couple, draw into a 3cc syringe, inject into a pre-sterilized vial with a syringe filter. No more than month supply at a time. Shutting down pituitary and changing aromatization dynamics for replacement level TRT dose when ur already high T and jacked already not worth it though. Would at least want to make some sick gains.
Thanks, will reconsider it in that case, my plan was to be btwn 120-150/week but heard/read this in recent months that it wont do much for me atm.
If I may - do you think that dose wont put me into 1000-1100 range. My test has been around 800-820 for 2 years and I feel that the visual progress in the gym is horribly slow and also mental/life drive is not as it was when I was 20 which is the goal.
Or that 30% increase is just not what one would say “I definitely see the visual progress and life force going up”?